well my diary.... i've cut out most of my hair....i didnt ment fot it to happen tho... that women that cuts hair did it to me... she messed up cutting it and i had to cut it off really really short... it doesnt look that bad... i dun look emo anymore tho....

i've changed the color too..but what the hell...i  think i might stay like this for a while so i may enjoy it...i kinda like the cut... i dunno... the summer is comming so having short hair is good...i guess...

Well i've got 15 mins till class starts , i'm studing 3d animation...is kinda cool, but complicated...too much buttons in the program, the teacher goes fast as hell and i cant do pics with lines....damn...but i still gonna do my best... if i can get the program soon i'll start practicing at my house, instead of just sleeping or reading...

in other news...i started gym about a month ago, i kinda gained some weight so is necessary, i feel too tired to go most times, but i try to be there at least 4 times a week, if not 5.

damn i feel so sleepy, maybe that's why i dun get much of the class, hahaha. i try to sleep at night but i've got a lil bit of a problem...i cant breath properly... apparently i've got some sort of alergy...my nose gets all...blocked....bleh

staying things positive, last night i saw a movie with my bf...im quite happy with him, its alrdy 1 year together, yey!. and well we saw 1408 a movie based on a Stephen King's book... it was really really cool... gave me goosbumps....

i shall vanish in a puff of pink dust as i start my class....

l8er

<3 <3

Hotaru

hey diary, i know its being long time...i've been busy...right... its not that...

havent u ever feel like ure stuck in time, it all moves but u cant feel it, u just stay still and waits for it to go.... nothing else.... i've been kinda depresed latetly. I still got the best bf ever, im glad about that...and my opera voice its getting better and better everytime...im happy about it. i just applyed for a place in the chorus of the church so i can sing salms in gregorian. i wish i can get the spot, they gotta prove i got a good voice...i hope i get it, i really really hope to get it....

and well this semester i only got 2 clases, bcoz i failed for the 3rd time one, and now im a "risk student" so i only have to study harder and harder....

my head hurts but im burning some dvds for my mom, she needs them for work, i just have to keep myself busy....

xoxo

HoTaRu

Mood: Unable to concentrate but forever in love

Music: The forever moments - Nightwish

Dear Diary, I know, I know, I havent write on a while, at least in here...i've been, well kinda busy...and forgetting things....well... i have a major headache now, its getting stronger, i think i better go to sleep soon, but first the updates...

well i'm in finals, so i'm busy-er than ever...got to read 300 pages for wednesday...i think i might be able to do it...if i try hard enough...im trying to read and i cant focus on anything...maybe im just to nervious about the tests...some subjects are really hard for me...i'll just keep on trying... i have a paper due friday, and and interview that i got to edit due saturday...i think i might be able to do it all in time and not loose any grades or anything...

and well, on the health plane, im better now, no asthma, less stomach ache...i'm getting better... in the love area, well i'm pretty happy...well really really happy....i turned 8 months with my bf last june 29th, and i've been having the nicest dates ever with him...i'm really really happy....i dun want to ever go away...

i feel so sleepy right now that i cant even think of what i'm about to write...i think i'll write some again in the middle of the week...

xoxo

Hotaru

Mood: Sleepy sleepy-di-doo

Music: HIM - Please don't let it go (acoustic version)

well i did, i've chicken out, so i stayed with my brown black hair color, bleh....i tried the ashed blonde thingy, but my roots were blonde and the rest a weird brown...as i hated it, i just went back to my natural hair color, i figure i will let it grow...i guess...

so weird day today...i've been kinda moody latetly....i guess something's wrong with me...i've been picking up fight with the ones i care the most outta nowhere...im trying to have some sense of control now...i'm getting better at it.... so let's keep it on weird, i feel kinda numb, i cant read, i cant concentrate and a thing that would take me 30 mins to do, now takes me like an hour...so im behind in homework and reading.... i know i shouldnt complain this much, i gotta see the nice side of everything...right?

well in other news, i've been considerating universities to end my carreer, it would be the 2 last semesters or the final one...my mom is quite exited that im thinking about Australia, apparently she likes that country... i dunno much of what i'm going to do...i have a whole year to think about it...in the mean time, she wants me to start english lessons so i can get my TOEFL or my Michigan test...i'll se how that one goes...i dunno much about british english....but that is the one i will learn...let's hope is not much of a change for me... i think im only good at this weird english i learned on my own....

i'm so damn sleepy today...and i did took a nap earlier....maybe im overstressed and that's why i'm so sleepy...wait, i'm always stressed...hahhaah... i cant wait till the weekend so i can start writing more....and i can go out with my bf...i've been missing him all week....im going to see him tomorrow friday and on sat....those are the nicest days of the week....

The day before yesterday something odd happened to me...well something that may not be as odd to other girls than for me...i was ridding the bus...quietly...listening music..watching throught the window...and a guy sits next to me, a guy way younger than me...so i rather say boy...well this boy stared at me for a while, shaked a lil bit..and looked oddly nervious... so i got nervious as well... i said to myself "here's a thief" i thought he was gonna rob me.... and before he gets out the bus he throws me a lil paper..and when i open it, guess what? his cellphone number, with the lamest pick up like i've ever...read... it said something like, i fancy u, text message me... hahaha... well we have to agree that takes guts to just leave ur number to a complete stranger, right?

And well today, the teacher (yes the damn ass teacher that we all know and hate) didnt come to class, so i went there at 8am in the cold weather, freezed, and he didnt come...and i went there for nothing...well its only fair to say that it takes me 15 mins to get there...but still 15 mins walking in a cold weather...so unfair....and it took me an hour to fall sleep again when i got home...hehehehe....

well, gotta endup my reading now, got another 8am class tomorrow, thank god its with a nice teacher...

so think happy thoughts think happy thoughts think happy thoughts think happy thoughts

xoxo

Hotaru